"Plan B" (for Stacey)

she offered me
a plan B
didn't recognise the complexities
of why
it could never work for me
could not really understand
why
her plan B
simply made me want to scream

but why
why
did I have to deny
that she was
going
to die
and I couldn't even
wouldn't even cry

now left with fragments
a parrot painting
squirrel fridge magnet
books
memories
and a friend's plan B
that still won't work for me