I have had the friends since childhood.
All of those are long gone now.
I have had the users and abusers -
their lies and their deceit. Repeat - repeat...
I have had the promised sense of community,
if only I would accordingly
adjust my lifestyle
and my spiritual beliefs.
I've had the friends who left - the ones who died.
Whatever, however - in the end,
I've cried, and been denied.
I've had the friends online, and believed
too much. I'll never touch
any of them.
I need the friends who call or text me, for no reason.
I need the friends who don't care how I look,
and accept me, flaws and all - yes, in my true -
updated, somewhat broken - form.
I need friends who see me as real,
and friendship as eternal,
and who will be authentic in return -
and I would rather be alone
than settle for less
than I - than we - deserve.