"Endurance"

Sometimes I don't think I can fall

any more, any deeper - and still

I fall,

I fall,

I fall.

I have used all

of my emotional energy,

caring for others,

who couldn't care less about me.

That's how I feel.

Is anything, or anyone, for real?

Deeper, deeper - drowning - can't breathe.

Eventually, everyone is going to leave -

abandon me.

That is my destiny.

I am empty, so empty, inside,

and there's nowhere to hide.

Chronic illness persists, day after day -

cannot even run away.

No choice but to stay.

Just have to endure

some more,

some more,

some more.