Body, mind, soul -
I am put daily to the test.
Physical, emotional, psychic - such pain -
and I do not get to rest.
I have searched all of my life
to find them - my people - true friends.
I have found temporary relief in delusional hopes -
again and again -
but each time, the crash comes and then
my world duly descends
into familiar chaos: living hell, where I belong.
I dissolve into grey -
scream into scarlet and crimson -
find sanctuary, finally -
in my spirit's