"What Do They Expect?"

Why am I upset? Why do I cry?

Do they honestly expect me not to care?


I've watched pets die -

friends die.


I've watched other friends leave,

without a backward glance.


I've second cousins,

whose existence

I'm not even told about.


I've found out accidentally,

almost casually, via a

Facebook thread -

"friend of friend tagged friend" -

that two old school friends

are both dead - one of whom

actually died

aged twenty-one,

but somehow I was never told.

The funeral attendance

was apparently excellent.


How do they expect me to feel?

Do they honestly expect me not to care?


I'm losing my marriage, and my mind.

And, yes - I do care. I hurt and I cry.