"So Judge Me"

I hardly ever leave the house these days.

The past few years, to me, are just a haze.

I cannot find my way out of this maze,

And have no more constructive points to raise.



I feel the tension building up inside.

It looks to you as if I haven’t tried,

Which is untrue. I have never denied

That I have made mistakes. I have not lied –



Not to you, and not even to myself.

It’s not a choice to struggle with my health.

"Trying to Escape"

if I stuff my head full

of poetry

song lyrics

Tweets

and my friends' Facebook

status updates

favourite paragraphs from favourite novels

lines remembered from movies


will my own thoughts

my own emotions

eventually

dissolve

into the vast ocean

of ideas

of thoughts and emotions


or will my mind

simply explode

"Dark"

almost intoxicated by

harsh, dark

emotions

"Calm"

post-storm

calm

has settled

here

within my

shattering heart

my dust-covered

dreams

finally

dead

the pain

unending

excruciating

and yet

suddenly

calm

so calm

"Sanity and Paperwork"

This is the path I walk but did not choose.

I feel my pain in different shades and hues.

Still seeking a new substance to abuse.



My sanity, like paperwork, I lose.

Feel judged by smug church people in their pews,

who can’t see past their narrow-minded views.



I’m over-sensitive. You touch – I bruise.

This is the path I walk but did not choose.

Both sanity and paperwork, I regularly lose.

"Silver"

Weave your silver shimmer

into the shards

of my heart.

Touch my spirit

in this darkness.

That is a start.

"The Healing Process"

gentle chords
a broken spirit
mending

healing hearts
unite
in love so pure