"Disconnected"

I feel disconnected

from your ordinary grief.

Knowing you'll be fine some day

must be such a relief -


and still, I wouldn't wish

this pain on anyone.

My darkness is eternal,

and I don't require the sun -


but I don't even get moonlight,

or a single star to shine

for me. I don't deserve that. Yet,

please don't ask me one more time,

to lie and say the words: "I'm fine."

I am not, and never will be.