"IRL"

Do I exist at all?

All seems unreal - surreal.

Of course, no-one can ever know

exactly how another feels.

Is anyone or anything

tangible - for real?

Am I real?

Do I exist at all?

"Becomes Another Day"

Hold on, just one more moment,

which becomes another day.

The subtle shades of sadness sing

deceptively sweet melodies. Hope fades,

like a repeating chorus line.

Still, we hold on

just one more moment,

which becomes

another day.

"Barriers"

these barriers, you'll never touch or see

they're real - they are a part of me

and the end results - visible enough

to make a cruel world reject me

"So-Called 'Known' Before"

How can I ever know for sure

what I have so-called "known" before,

that people wouldn't leave?

I thought I knew the score

so many times - but I was wrong -

the lyrics from another song.

My mind knows - not my heart.

I've been this way for far too long.

I want to let go of my fears,

but part of me never will.

It's tearing me apart, but it's true:

I can't trust anyone.

"Never Came Close"

I sense an ending in the air

as yet - not clearly defined

but there


never came close

to closeness for me

fragments of reality

shower

my shattering heart

how can this

be right

dreams like melting ice

within my mind


how do I hold on

yet - how

do I let go

"Believed in a Light"

rubies in blood

those flags, I routinely ignored

just watched them

dancing

day after day

in the wind

believed in a light

that devoured my mind

artificial

never quite seeming unkind

no stop sign

in sight

not even a pause or rewind

on these emotions

and yet

I must return

to the darkness

this time

at least that is familiar

safe

and I know it will always

be mine

"Directionless and Disconnected"

and when it all goes silent

and I am left with only me

my racing thoughts

the emptiness

the pain throughout my body

chaotic darkness in my mind

directionless

in silence

feeling disconnected

I need to find the route back home

to me