"Believed in a Light"

rubies in blood

those flags, I routinely ignored

just watched them

dancing

day after day

in the wind

believed in a light

that devoured my mind

artificial

never quite seeming unkind

no stop sign

in sight

not even a pause or rewind

on these emotions

and yet

I must return

to the darkness

this time

at least that is familiar

safe

and I know it will always

be mine

"Directionless and Disconnected"

and when it all goes silent

and I am left with only me

my racing thoughts

the emptiness

the pain throughout my body

chaotic darkness in my mind

directionless

in silence

feeling disconnected

I need to find the route back home

to me

"Breaking the Cycle"

How does she trust through silences

that bruise her brittle mind?

She can hear their echoes, so distinct -

and reality is duly redefined.


The cycle is relentless,

but she's fighting it this time.

"Every Shade of Pain"

I scream in every shade of pain.

There aren't sufficient words to convey

how deeply I hurt;

how much I need you

to care - to show that you care;

be there;

even when I push you away;

especially then.

I scream in every shade of pain,

and your silence says

it all

to me.

"Her Darkness"

she fears and obsesses

can you understand

tries to speculate and theorise

and daydreams a lot

but in truth

the outcome is too often

out of her hands


can you stay with her darkness

if so

for how long

you know how deeply she cares

and that you have done nothing wrong


but she fears and obsesses

and can't seem to stop

will it just drive you crazy

will you need to escape

or can you actually stay with

understand

and even embrace

her vibrant darkness

her passion, compassion

depression, insanity

creativity, kindness

intensity, love for you

random mood swings

instead

"Emotions Spinning"

a kaleidoscope of vibrant darkness

in my mind

that leaves my emotions spinning

like a fairground ride


wild horses

escape the carousel

by night


and dreams enclose me

"The Release"

and when I cry, I feel it - the release

but still, this overwhelming pain won't cease

when we have one thing

we must lose the other

I need to focus on my dreams now

change my destiny

always, there is a new path to discover