"I Must"

out of luck

out of trust

but somehow I must

I must

"State of Confusion"

hold me

don't go away

even though I drive you away

tell me why no-one else

will stay

and even though I need to go away

I will stay

in the sense that counts

but why should I trust

anyone else

"Let's Pretend"

is it really

"pandering"

for anyone

to reassure

me

ever

of

anything

can I rely

on any

of my

"family"

or "friends"

who will

still be

there

tomorrow

the next day

who will be

with me

until the end

or is

the whole

of my

life

one long game of

let's pretend

people pretending

to be

my family

and pretending

to be

my friends

"Falling Apart"

caring cannot be avoided

but somehow

I must not go too deep


emotional attachments

can break my heart

time after time


and they do

and that's why

I am falling apart

"Once in My Heart"

why would I trust

more people now

when people have always

let me down

once in my heart

always in my heart

I can't un-care

once I care

so now I must try

not to start

"Crumbs and Fears"

I don't need much

that's the ironic part

I could feast forever

on your crumbs

I cling to the signs that you

almost

respect me

I ask for nothing

I can work quietly

spiritually

on your behalf

unthanked

unwanted

unappreciated

but that sounds as if I resent it

and I don't

it is my privilege

it is only the fact

that sometimes

it hurts

more than my soul can endure

and then

of course

I always

have my fears

"Sleeping Beauty"

After that initial

century's sleep,

she felt Prince Charming's lips

upon her own -

but she had learnt too much,

during her waking years.


She lay, motionless -

pretending to be

eternally dead.


Prince Charming believed in her

pretence,

and he left.