"Believed in a Light"

rubies in blood

those flags, I routinely ignored

just watched them

dancing

day after day

in the wind

believed in a light

that devoured my mind

artificial

never quite seeming unkind

no stop sign

in sight

not even a pause or rewind

on these emotions

and yet

I must return

to the darkness

this time

at least that is familiar

safe

and I know it will always

be mine

"Directionless and Disconnected"

and when it all goes silent

and I am left with only me

my racing thoughts

the emptiness

the pain throughout my body

chaotic darkness in my mind

directionless

in silence

feeling disconnected

I need to find the route back home

to me